I wanna be married and done with school and Idk I wanna be happy. I know that is a lot to wish for and to acomplish but I want to finally be the person I want to see in the mirror.
day 1 - your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
day 2 - where you’d like to be in 10 years.
day 3 - your views on drugs and alcohol.
day 4 - your views on religion.
day 5 - a time you thought about ending your own life.
day 6 - write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
day 7 - your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
day 8 - a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
day 9 - how you hope your future will be like.
day 10 - discuss your first love and first kiss.
day 11 - put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
day 12 - bullet your whole day.
day 13 - somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
day 14 - your earliest memory.
day 15 - your favorite tumblrs.
day 16 - your views on mainstream music.
day 17 - your highs and lows of this past year.
day 18 - your beliefs.
day 19 - disrespecting your parents.
day 20 - how important you think education is.
day 21 - one of your favorite shows.
day 22 - how have you changed in the past 2 years?
day 23 - give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
day 24 - your favorite movie and what it’s about.
day 25 - someone who fascinates you and why.
day 26 - what kind of person attracts you.
day 27 - a problem that you have had.
day 28 - something that you miss.
day 29 - goals for the next 30 days.
day 30 - your highs and lows of this month.
I am having this problem right now. I am working so hard but I am not over everything yet. I am in love with Brown. That is all I know. Nothing more, nothing less. I want to be with him for a long time. But I dont know how to get over my ever reoccurring feelings for him.
I know that he is not good for me. I know that he is an ass hole that will die happy with his now 2 times ex fiance. Maybe I was right in the first place. I should not have been with him ever. I should have just been happy and stayed single. But then I would have never been with brown at all. I mean… I saw something the other day that said “I have had a crust on you since I met you.” And it is so true! I have! I mean I know that it sounds bad because I met him in August. Right after I had come out to davids mom about the engagement.
Every time that we went to alfred angelo and look at dresses, I would look at browns face and see the hurt and sadness that I was with him. I dont know if I am reading into that but he would look at me like a sad puppy dog. I would also look at his face and see which one he liked best. I mean he was going to be daves best man. I am in love with my exs best friend. I need to figure out what is going on in my head and his before I know what to do anymore!
So last night I went out with brown again. Nothing special just chillin with friends and I was going to take him home when he asked if I wanted to meet his parents… SAY WHAT?!? I didnt think you met the parents for a while… you know like maybe a lot later in the relationship… And we were at the dam (we were talking about my girl McCalls situation) and he was like well we have only been doing this for 2 months… I didnt know that! I mean I guess I did but he knew down to the exact date! HUH!?!? What is this meaning? Am I looking at this too in depth? I need advice! HELP?
Even though I am not able to continue wishing for happily ever after. I have a plan for my life.
January- Continue to go to school and work and pay back the car more and more.
February- Continue like January.
March-School, work, save money, pay mom and dad back
April- Same as before… only hopefully save a LOT more!
May- Same…
June-Back to school!
July-Finish school and save money!
August- Finish paying off my car. Save a little money (well more than a little)
September- Move into my apartment FINALLY!
October- Graduate from school! <3
November- Take the month off and work and apply for the next step in my college career!
December- THE WORLD ENDS! lol jkjk
I am currently single. I was engaged to a liar and cheater and I didnt know it. But now I am talking to an amazing guy. He will remain nameless for today. He has become somebody who I could never see myself without. I am not sure what our future holds but it will be special. that is all I know right now. <3 I might be single but I sure do love that I have friends. Being single is not the end of the world. I know my blog might make it seem otherwise, but I enjoy being single. Although I have not been truly single since august of last year, I am happy with who I am. I have been single for almost 2 months now and its the beginning of a new year! I have no much to do this year and this month alone is going to be crazy!
day 1 - your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
day 2 - where you’d like to be in 10 years.
day 3 - your views on drugs and alcohol.
day 4 - your views on religion.
day 5 - a time you thought about ending your own life.
day 6 - write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
day 7 - your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
day 8 - a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
day 9 - how you hope your future will be like.
day 10 - discuss your first love and first kiss.
day 11 - put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
day 12 - bullet your whole day.
day 13 - somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
day 14 - your earliest memory.
day 15 - your favorite tumblrs.
day 16 - your views on mainstream music.
day 17 - your highs and lows of this past year.
day 18 - your beliefs.
day 19 - disrespecting your parents.
day 20 - how important you think education is.
day 21 - one of your favorite shows.
day 22 - how have you changed in the past 2 years?
day 23 - give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
day 24 - your favorite movie and what it’s about.
day 25 - someone who fascinates you and why.
day 26 - what kind of person attracts you.
day 27 - a problem that you have had.
day 28 - something that you miss.
day 29 - goals for the next 30 days.
day 30 - your highs and lows of this month.
